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Today has not been my day. Danny and I decided to have his mom stay with us while he is deployed. It was to hopefully benefit both of us. His mom is having some issues in Colorado at the moment and I don't really want to be alone while my husband is away for like a year. Well, my mom decides that this is specifically to make her feel like an outcast and that Danny is trying to keep me away from her. I was the one who made the final decision. Danny won't even be here so its not like it effects him either way. I can't believe my mom would say that he is trying to keep me away from her! He has done nothing wrong! Why is that when people try to b

ok so I was texting one of my friends today. she is getting married in like November and has asked me to be her bride's maid! I'm so happy! I feel so loved! YAY FOR ME!!!

So I just found out that I don't have enough money to pay for school this semester. my mom says she will help but I don't want to have to ask her for it. I was trying so hard to not have to ask for help, but here it is only my second year, second semester and I need help. I hate this. and I wasn't able to work much this break cuz of my surgery. I can't help but feel like I am failing. and it isn't from lack of trying but just because I shouldn't be here in the first place. some days I just wish that I wasn't alive and today is really one of them. Sometimes I wish I had the courage to just do what I think should have been done a long time ago.